私が知らないことばかり世の中では起きていて、それを気にせず生きるのも自由だし、それを踏まえた上で発言するのも自由だが、全てを承知で何かを言うことなんてできない。しかし、それを開き直ることも違和感がある。いつも気になる、自分はこれで良いか、自問自答して、答えのない問のなかで苦しんでいたら80年くらいの寿命なんて「あっ」と言う間だし、他にもやりたいことや、やってあげたい人もたくさんいるのにそれも成し遂げられない人生が去ってしまう。以前に書いた人間と蟻ではないけれど、本当に儚い命を生きている気がしてくる。
遊び稽古
１体操
２杖になれる
３相半身片手取り
本稽古
１合気体操
２足捌き
３受け身
４相半身片手取り一教裏（杖の手引き）
５相半身片手取り鳥船呼吸投げ
６横面打ち三教表
７横面打ち小手返し表
８横面打ち四方投げ裏
９多人数取り呼吸投げ
とりあえず、今日も稽古にきてくれた人に感謝だと言うこと。その人たちにいただいた１時間半ちょっとの大切な時間を、とにかく一生懸命に何かを伝えられたらと行動することが私にとっての大切な稽古であると言うこと、それに尽きると思う。とにかくそういうことだ。
So many things happen in the world that I know nothing about. It is our freedom to live without paying attention to them, and it is also our freedom to speak while taking them into account. Yet it is impossible to know everything before saying something. At the same time, simply shrugging that off and declaring it irrelevant feels unsatisfying as well.
I often find myself wondering: Am I really doing this right? I question myself repeatedly. But if I spend my entire life struggling with questions that have no final answers, then an eighty-year lifespan will disappear in the blink of an eye. There are still so many things I want to do, and so many people I would like to help. If I become trapped in endless self-examination, life may pass before any of those things are accomplished.
As I wrote before when comparing people to ants, there are times when I am struck by how fragile and fleeting human life truly is.
Play practice
- Warm-up exercises
- Becoming familiar with the jo
- Ai-hanmi katate-dori
Main practice
- Aiki warm-up exercises
- Footwork
- Ukemi (breakfalls)
- Ai-hanmi katate-dori ikkyo ura (guided with the jo)
- Ai-hanmi katate-dori torifune kokyu-nage
- Yokomen-uchi sankyo omote
- Yokomen-uchi kote-gaeshi omote
- Yokomen-uchi shiho-nage ura
- Multiple-attacker kokyu-nage
In the end, what matters most to me is simple: gratitude for the people who came to practice today.
They entrusted me with an hour and a half of their lives—time that can never be returned. My responsibility is to make the most of that time and to do my best to convey something meaningful through practice. That, more than any particular technique or achievement, is what I consider an important part of my own training.
When I strip away all the larger questions and uncertainties, it comes down to that. To be grateful for the people who are here, to value the time we share, and to give my full effort while that opportunity exists. That is what it is, and perhaps that is enough.
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