最近、体のことが気になる。中年になってやっぱり体型も変わってきた。なにより私は看護師なので夜勤もあるし、同時に合気道を教える立場でまだまだ自分が吸収したい気持ちも義務感と責任感も後押しして、生活はギリギリを続けているのかもしれない。と言いつつ、体重増加の原因は明らかな食べ過ぎだ。昔から根本的な弱さは解決できていない。摂生したいと思いつつなかなかできない。
しかし合気道は自分を元に戻してくれる。何も考えず、稽古に行く、そうすると食べ過ぎで体型の変わった自分もまた畳に戻ってくる。決して弱さを克服できたわけではない。でもここに軸がある。
人間は弱さを克服していくのではなく、弱さと共存していくんだ。勝とうとは思っていない、いや勝とうと思う気持ちが余計に囚われていく。自分の軸とはこういうものでいい。
遊び稽古
１体操
２杖に慣れる
３ 一教の原理
４逆半身片手取り四方投げ表
本稽古
１合気体操
２足さばき
３受け身
４相半身片手取り一教表
５相半身片手取り一教ストレッチ
６相半身片手取り一教表（転換）
７逆半身片手取り横崩し呼吸投げ
８逆半身片手取り横崩し呼吸投げ（転換）
９相半身片手取り二教裏
１０多人数取り逆半身片手取り横崩し呼吸投げ
今日は見学の方が来られたので、一緒にできる内容にした。一つ一つの動作を難しくするのではなく分解して説明するのは師範からの受け売りだ。見学のかたが入会されるかはわからない。でもいいんだ、合気道はいろんなひとのいろんな目標があっていい。それを体現するために、少しでも一緒にできる内容にチャレンジしたい。
Lately, I have become more aware of my body.
As I enter middle age, my physique is naturally beginning to change. Being a nurse means working night shifts, and at the same time I am in a position where I teach Aikido. I still have a strong desire to learn and grow, while a sense of duty and responsibility continues to push me forward. Perhaps I have been living right on the edge of my limits for quite some time.
That said, the reason for my weight gain is quite obvious: I simply eat too much. The fundamental weakness I have carried for years has not disappeared. I want to live with more moderation, yet I often find it difficult.
Still, Aikido has a way of bringing me back to myself.
Without overthinking, I simply go to practice. When I step onto the tatami, even the version of myself that has gained weight from overeating returns to where it belongs.
It is not that I have overcome my weaknesses.
But I have found an axis.
Perhaps human beings do not conquer their weaknesses. Perhaps we learn to live alongside them.
I no longer feel the need to win against myself. In fact, the desire to win may be what traps us most deeply.
An axis does not have to be perfect.
Perhaps this is enough.
Play Practice
- Exercises
- Becoming familiar with the jo (wooden staff)
- Principles of Ikkyo
- Gyaku-hanmi katate-dori Shiho-nage Omote
Main Practice
- Aiki exercises
- Footwork
- Ukemi (falling techniques)
- Ai-hanmi katate-dori Ikkyo Omote
- Ai-hanmi katate-dori Ikkyo Stretch
- Ai-hanmi katate-dori Ikkyo Omote (with tenkan)
- Gyaku-hanmi katate-dori Yokokuzushi Kokyu-nage
- Gyaku-hanmi katate-dori Yokokuzushi Kokyu-nage (with tenkan)
- Ai-hanmi katate-dori Nikyo Ura
- Multiple-attacker practice: Gyaku-hanmi katate-dori Yokokuzushi Kokyu-nage
Today we had a visitor observing practice, so I chose techniques that everyone could participate in together.
The idea of breaking movements down into smaller parts instead of making them more complicated is something I learned from my teacher. It allows people to understand the principles step by step.
I do not know whether our visitor will decide to join the dojo.
But that is perfectly fine.
Aikido can hold many different goals for many different people. Each person walks their own path and seeks their own meaning.
To honor that diversity, I want to continue creating practice where as many people as possible can participate, learn, and experience Aikido together.
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